Dear Tumblr,
Oh how I’ve missed you. When’s the last time I even posted on here? It’s just been too long. Right now I’m laying in my bed with a broken heart and a swollen mouth from getting my wisdom teeth removed, yesterday. Surprisingly, I’m recovering a lot quicker that anyone had thought I would. I only had to take one Vicadin (sp?) despite the fact that I could have taken like 15. There isn’t much pain, just a lot of swelling.
Funny how I’m recovering so quickly from the surgery and not the broken heart part. Does anybody have any advice on that subject? Seriously though, I think we broke up over six months ago. We dated for roughly a year and a half and then it just stopped. Everything stopped. He disappeared for a week. Then when we tried to make things better, we both felt, different. I know I’m not in love with him anymore, and I know that I don’t want to date him again. Just the other day he told me that I’m “a bitch and should go fuck” myself. Yea.. crummy, right? Exactly. He did apologize, and I forgave him, because I know he was just angry, but still.
Ever since.. everything, I haven’t been able to figure out my feelings. My heart is so mixed up and flustered. I’ve had about 8 possible guys in my life, but I don’t want to date any of them. I’ve had innocent fun with all of them, nothing to extreme, only some kisses, but nothing more. I’m not sure I could handle anything else.
I don’t even know if I want to get married, ever, at this point. Too much commitment, what if I chose the wrong person? That would be scary.
p.s. My dream to fly? Yea, it’s crushed. My eyesight = Not nearly good enough, even if it got corrected. Sigh =(